THIS IS ...ESS!

“There are three things that are too amazing for me,
    four that I do not understand:

the way of an eagle in the sky,
the way of a snake on a rock,

the way of a ship on the high seas,
and the way of a man with a young woman."~Proverbs 30:18-19


The words of King Solomon so resonate with me at this particular season. Well, as my KOF fraternity has witnessed over the last few months,yours truly has been "suffering" emotional upheavals.#CiaWendo has been the hash-tag. Mapenzi has inspired "ma-pens".

Thankfully,by His immense grace,God has bestowed unto me a special gift.
Still coming to terms with the reality of the blessing.He's gifted me my dream woman.
This is kinda of my testimony,a celebration of God's doing in that regard. 

In honour of that special one,this I address:

She's the daughter of the King,I call her princess.
She's confident and bold,I call her lioness.
(You see ,she looks up to the Lion of Judah as her ultimate)
I'm drawn by her Godliness,
Daily as she strives for Christ-likeness,
She's humble,yearning for more of God,and of herself less.

She is modest in her dress,
In life too,not given to excess.
Ambitious she is,with diligence and excellence she works towards success.
Gifted she is,I'm intrigued by her literary prowess.

My pursuit of her,onward I press.
You see ,indeed to me,she never ceases to impress.
My affections and intention I did express,
You see,with her heart I didn't wanna mess.
I sought her hand and heart for a relationship,thankfully by God's grace she said YES!

Still in awe of God's awesomeness,
By gifting me her,I'm amazed by His kindness,
I pray that our relationship He may continually bless.
That by His will,a day soon we shall witness,
As I stand at the altar,and she walks down the aisle in that white dress ...


                                    ~*~*~*~*~*~

Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting;
    but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.~Proverbs 31:30

HE IS RUNNING...

One of my favourite bands happens to be Casting Crowns. I like the theme of their songs that awakens us to the world lost in darkness and helplessness. One of the songs they sang some time back is Does Anybody Hear Her? You may be familiar with it. It forms the basis of my writing today. Picking it up from their last line of the song,telling the guy's version.

May we be stirred to respond in love to those around us who are seeking.As Christ looked at the crowd and saw they were harassed and helpless,may we be moved by His compassion.

Here goes:

He is running
A hundred miles an hour
In the wrong direction

He is trying
But the canyons ever widening
In the depths of his cold heart
So he sets out on another misadventure just to find
He's another two years older and he's three more steps behind

Does anybody hear him?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know he's going down today?
Under the jab of the needle/poison of the bottle,
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear him?
Can anybody see?

He is yearning
For approval and validation,
That he never found at home
He is searching
For someone to ride in,
To ride in and save the day
And then walks in his princess beautiful,
And she knows just what to say
A momentary lapse of reason
And he gives himself away

If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Who can't see past his studded ears/tattooed body/bloodshot eyes
And we never even met him

If judgment looms under every steeple
If lofty glances from lofty people
Who can't see past his studded ears/tattooed body/bloodshot eyes
And we never even met him
Never even met him

He is running a hundred miles an hour in the wrong direction
                            ~*~*~*~*~
From the bottle,he takes the last swallow,
He thinks deeply of his life,turns out its been too shallow,
In the miasma of confusion and self pity,he continues to wallow,
As he regrets why those enslaving sips to his lips he did allow,
For a moment he ponders to take the gallow,
You see life now seems so hollow,
But again he's worried what for his family will follow.

He's running. Does anybody hear him? Can anybody see?
You see there's a man who hanged on the tree on his behalf.
 If only someone would point him to Him.

He takes a shot of dope,
He says it helps him cope,
Against his life's dwindling hope,
Dumped by his girlfriend just as he planned how they'd elope,
Now he too is considering the rope.

He's running. Does anybody hear him? Can anybody see?
You see there's a man who hanged on the tree on his behalf. 
If only someone would point him to Him.


Does anybody hear him?
Can anybody see?
Or does anybody even know he's going down today?
Under the jab of the needle/poison of the bottle,
With all the lost and lonely people
Searching for the hope that's tucked away in you and me
Does anybody hear him?
Can anybody see?

MEDITATIONS: HOLDING ON!

When the clouds become dense,

When the battle with sin rages intense,

Every fibre in my being growing tense,

And nothing seems to make sense,

Lord help me to see through Your lens,

Rest in Your love for me that's immense,

And know that Calvary You already paid the expense.

When the mountains seem too steep,

When the valleys seem too deep,

When darkness begins to creep,

And my strength and hope starts to seep,

Left with nothing much to do but weep,

Help me hold on and know that Your promises You keep!

*Scripture for Meditation: Psalm 119:50

"My comfort in my suffering is this:

    Your promise preserves my life."

MEDITATIONS: FOR YOUR GLORY

Oh that I may not live for man's acclaim,
Striving to be always at the top of the game,
Mainly as a ladder to my fame,
Rather that it'd be for the glory of Your name.

Oh that with boldness Your word I'll proclaim,
By faith your promises claim,
Despite the doubts and fears that maim.

Oh that my tongue and flesh I'll learn to tame,
That in my walk with You,I'll not become lame,
Transform me that I'll not remain the same.
This I pray,for the glory of Your name.

                            ~*~*~*~*~

Scriptures for Meditation: Colossians 3:17,23-24
"And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him...
...Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for human masters, since you know that you will receive an inheritance from the Lord as a reward. It is the Lord Christ you are serving."

That LIST: MY DREAM WOMAN!

I was commuting to town the other day.The playlist that day was different...not the usual rambo kanambo,weka weka or worse still the explicit music they normally play.Wooi ma-Kalonje na Aricah...

"All lovers get ready" boomed the loud speakers. I silently smiled...You know that great moment when the music resonates with you ...sema DJ kutumwa.

Anyway the music tugged at my heart and soon enough I was singing along. It reminded me of my list...some lines I had scribbled on a scrap of paper back in 2010.

DREAM WOMAN I had titled it.I kept the list...came across the paper recently when I was arranging my house.Yeah don't wonder...we all have lists,some unwritten,but clear somewhere in our minds. I bet you too got a list.

When asked what kind of lady I'm looking for,I'd say Proverbs 31 summarizes it perfectly.
Nonetheless here goes my expectations of my dream woman,whom I believe God is molding you into.

You are a woman of the Word rather than of the world.

Your chief pursuit is God rather than gold.

You'll be interested more in what drives me rather than what I drive.

You'll be more concerned with my self worth rather than net worth.

You'll value me not because of my valuables but because of my core values.

You'll love me for my character rather than my karats.

You'll delight more in who rather than what I am.

You may diet when it comes to food,but I sure hope you feast spiritually.

Meanwhile I'm searching,waiting,hoping ...praying for you. I hope you praying for me as well. I believe in God's timing and outworking we shall meet soon.

Looking forward to our celebration of love when our dreams come to reality.

My dreams are valid.

Yours,
Hopeful Romantic.

TERROR ALERT!!! #ALSHABAiBy

She had a killer smile...
She was dressed to kill...
For a moment I was dazed and stood still.
BROWN SKIN MURDER!!!
Rangi alikuwa ya thao...
Kidogo nijipate nimetupa mbao.

And kill she did.
She killed my resolve to look the other way.
As my eyes lustfully followed her hips sway.
The height of her heels accentuated her assets.
The depth of my depravity letting loose my liabilities.
My Achilles heel you could say.

I soon kept up her pace.
She requested if I could escort her to her place.
Tête-à-tête kijana nikajitetea.
Intro kiasi,akadai jina ni Taquisha
Akasema jibu ni karibu ikiwa nitabisha.
Kwisha...Msupa kajipa.
Nilidhani namchinjia kumbe nilikuwa najipeleka kichinjio...

I liked the conversation's progression.
My body giving a standing ovation.
But soon deep within welled some tension.
My conscience prompting some hesitation.

We got to her place and I hastily said Bye.
I refused though she pleaded I come in see her tie and dye.
I couldn't trust my flesh as within me raged a fire.
Entangled in the mesh of my waged war with desire.
I walked ,nay, fled...struggling hard not to look back.
Were it not for His grace,sidhani ningehack.

You see the Enemy comes to steal,kill and destroy.
Thankfully the Holy Spirit alerted me of the Devil's ploy.
And reminded me of a deeper and greater joy,
Than seeing and using this lady as a toy.

© Kamata 

                                                 ~*~*~

As I meditate on Scripture God's continual warnings are clear. 

Proverbs 5 and 7 warns of the strange woman. It gives a scenario of an ox heading for slaughter...blood chilling (Ch.5v.22).

I am warned against spending/wasting my strength(Prov.31v.3)

Ecclesiastes talks of a snare.(Ch.7 v 26)

Paul's charge to Timothy is to flee. (2Tim.2:22)

This is a call unto my fellow men to "pull a Joseph"  when enticed by the Potiphar's wives of our culture..."Kukataa kukula hata ukipakuliwa"

Si ati nimefika. Bado kungangana kama Nganga:p
Its not easy but God assures us of His strength.

For further study: Genesis 39; Matthew 5:27-30;1 Thessalonians 5:3-8; Titus 2:11-14

Recommended reads:

• Purity Principle -Randy Alcorn
• Every Man's Battle(Series) -Steve Arteburn &Fred Stoeker
• The Silent War- Henry Rogers

FROM SITE WITH LOVE: VALENTINE'S PACKAGE

I wrote this a while back... my friends may recall it. Its no Thursday but a throw-back may not hurt. A bit of editing here and there. Enjoy!

It is that day of the year...a day they set apart to express love. But by now my dear you already know that daila ni valentine kwangu...daily expressing my love to you. I mean love is such a great thing to be just celebrated once a year.

However let me bow down to societal pressure and express it today in a special fashion,a vivid n lucid manner that shall remain etched ,engraved n embossed in both your memory and heart.

I would have bought flowers but I thought that would be cliche.Secondly choosing whether plastic or live roses proved to b challenging. You see if I bought plastic,though long lasting that wouldn't reflect the authentic nature of our love. I mean our love is not plastic,ts genuine.If I settle for live roses they'll soon wilt away,something I'd hate to happen to our love.Furthermore choosing the color of the flowers would be tricky.Our love is too colorful to b expressed in red. 

I would take you out for a fancy dinner. Though we'd enjoy the scrumptious cuisine...the fact is the experience would be short-lived. I'm sure you wouldn't want our love to be so.

I had thought of buying you that fancy dress you've always been eyeing. But lets face it,you'll  only wear it for a short while,may soon be not that trendy and perhaps you may grow gravitationally enhanced and it will no longer fit you. Eventually it 'll b relegated to your closet just like the ones I have bought u before.

So I thought of doing it differently this time round .I hope you find it as thoughtful. Pardon me though as it borrows heavily from my building world.So here goes:

After conducting feasibility studies n preliminary site surveys(trial pits included),I have settled on L/R ID:UR HEART as the 'land' for the proposed site for our relationship development. I'd first like to furnish you with the requisite drawings-plans and elevations-of this development.This are orthographic and perspective projections of my emotions. If you wish for any modifications to the design,consult with God. He's the chief architect and lead consultant,our relationship is made in heaven.

I would also like to present the following materials as a symbol of my commitment:

1.ROCK-This represents a firm foundation.Though there be times when our relationship is on the rocks,we'll find solace having our love founded on the Rock of Ages.
2.CEMENT-my dear it has been a long time coming and I would like us to cement our relationship.I took the liberty to order for 'BLUE TRIANGLE'... I remember your favourite color is blue...
3.BALLAST&SAND-mixed together with the cement,I'd like  to form a CONCRETE basis for our love.
4.NATURAL STONE- mawe ya 'ndarugu',"rongai" na hata "njiru"...this represents my commitment to BUILD a future wit u.
5. MABATI YA DUMU ZAS-long lasting against rust,rather in our case,lust and to shelter us in rains.
6.and to crown it all,u guessed right,CROWN PAINT,I'd love to colour your world.They say if u like it crown it...need I say mo...


It is said there's no romance without finance.Don't worry,I have that under control.I'v liaised with HOUSING FINANCE to have a mortgage. In case the approval may take time,I'm in talks with Bank Of Africa. "TUJIJENGE"

To top it all,I give you myself,a construction manager.I'll expend my expertise to ensure our relationship is built of superior quality and stand the test of time!

All these goes to show my desire to ACCOMMODATE you in my life!

Darling,this is my valentine package for you.HAPPY VALENTINE!

"NIKIO NDOKA...!"

Tis been one of my long held goals to begin blogging. In fact twas one of my resolutions last year.Somehow procrastination got the better of me,always seemed never quite ready to start.
They say,always wonder "they" are,the toughest bit is starting up.In my own opinion,keeping up is much of a greater challenge.

I'm no great writer,but I believe I got something to share. I'd like to hone my writing skills.I have been severally told that the best way to grow a skill is seeking opportunities to perform it.I hereby begin this journey,hoping and praying to grow better by the day.

As such your comments and constructive criticism,pun intended,are highly welcome. My opinions and expressed thoughts may not always be right,but I share them with the intention to engage. My prayer is that my readers may be "built up". 

Let the conversations begin.

I now set forth my blog with a deep sense of my limited ability; but with an earnest prayer that it may do some good.